Part 2: Prologue
Father, I am writing this diary so Mother doesn't find it. No one remembers paper down here, or
they have trouble finding it. Father, I miss you. Mother is trying to "break" something. She calls it
my "conditioning," but there is no conditioner here. Rapture has turned to shambles since you...you...
Andrew Ryan is dead and his son was the one who killed him! Apparently he "had to" or something,
but then he tried to kill Frank Fontaine! My Sisters saved him though when he was injured.
Yes, my Sisters. I sense them, all of them. Father, I want to bring you back. But until then, I am
trapped here and living my life through my Sisters.
I don't know how long it's been since I saw you Father. All I know now is I see Rapture as how it truly
is. I do not feel the need to drink ADAM anymore, but I still need it to survive. Mother has a plan, I
know it. I can see it every time she approaches me with the needle.
Father, I do not like it. I feel how much older I am. I feel...wrong. I don't know whether it's because
I miss the marble Rapture I once knew, or because something...I feel something in my head. It's more
than just whatever my Sister's are going through, I hear it....Father, I do not want to be old. Why can't I
just be five again? Why won't Mother just leave me alone like she used to?
It's RAPTURE, Father. She is injecting me with Rapture. Well, the Splicers in it. It has something
to do with her plan. I am the perfect little genius and she wants to have Rapture "reborn" in me,
whatever that means. All I know is that there are more people in my head, Father. I want them gone.
I mentioned before, Father, that I could sense the Sisters. It's been five years since I wrote it, and one
Sister has bothered me. I can sense her, sometimes. She's very far away and only appears sometimes,
but nevertheless, she is there. Wherever she is, I feel like she is beyond the city of Rapture. But how
can a Little Sister exist beyond Rapture?
Father, I've managed to contact Doctor Tenenbaum. She has returned to Rapture, because little girls
are being kidnapped from the surface. I know why Mother is doing it, the Little Sisters are becoming
Big Sisters and are...violent. But Dr. Tenenbaum has returned. We are using the Little Sisters to
I don't like my Sisters being treated like this though, as tools. I know they would do anything for me,
but the Big Sisters....they are so powerful, and are trying to fill the void left by the diminishing Big
Daddies. They fight on sight and I can sense through them too. They are so powerful, but a lifetime
of ADAM will do that to a person. But the insanity affected them too, well, partially. I heard Mother
mention that the older Sisters were to be reprogrammed. It's just...Father, am I to turn into one of them
too someday? To fight my few friends, to only want to protect? You at least had the ability to think.
And once the Alphas were phased out, the Big Daddies lost that. I'm sure it was nice to only know
love, but at the expense of everything else? How would it be like to live like that?
Father, we are bringing you back to life! Dr. Tenenbaum had the idea of refitting the resurrection
things Andrew Ryan has. The Little Sisters are looking for your body now while Dr. Tenenbaum fixes
and reformats them. Father, you will return soon. And maybe... maybe I can show you my ten years of
Something is wrong Father. Mother knows, and she is bringing the full weight of the Family against
you. Be careful. Dr. Tenenbaum is working on the other Sisters, while I watch you.
** "And then Father, the Rapture dream was over. You taught me that 'evil' is just a word. Under
the skin, it's simple pain. For you, mercy was victory. You sacrificed, you endured, and when given
the chance, you forgave. Always. Mother believed this world was irredeemable, but she was wrong,
Father. We are Utopia, you and I, and in forgiving, we left the door open for her.
The Rapture dream is over, but in waking I am reborn. This world is not ready for me, yet here I am. It
would be so easy to misjudge them. You are my conscience, Father, and I need you to guide me. You
will always be with me now, Father, your memories, your drives. And when I need you, you'll be there
on my shoulder whispering. If Utopia is not a place, but a people, then we must choose carefully, for
the world is about to change, and in our story, Rapture was just the beginning."
I know you are here with me Father, but it is a comfort to still write to you. Thanks to you, I have
escaped Rapture. I saved and forgave Mother like you would do. Tenenbaum managed to save Subject
Sigma. He's a very nice man named Mr. Porter who was tricked and became part of the Alpha program
that way. He's living here in Jack's house until he can get a place of his own. It'll be hard to find a job,
He's been declared legally dead and legally I don't exist.
I'm still wondering about two things though, Father. That Little Sister I can sense, she's growing
stronger. She's still so far from my reach, but she appears on my...."radar" more often now. (I am so
behind on "modern times," Father. I do not understand any of the slang, or the references, since the
last bit of surface news that Rapture got was about twenty years ago. I've been scouring libraries
and reading old newspapers to TRY to keep up. I'll have to skip school though, Father, I don't think I
would work well there.) She's not a Big Sister, but she is powerful. Where is she? And why can I only
sense her sometimes?
The second thing, Father, is...you. Even with your memories, I wish I knew more about you.
Whenever you were turned into my Father, you lost so much. I can feel it sometimes. The smell of the
sea, football, Jules Verne, these were important to you. I can tell. I can feel something flicker in my
skull whenever they come up in conversation. But as you lost it, so do I. How much did it bother you,
Father, that you knew so little about yourself? Maybe not much (after all, you were there to look after
me) but still... when I was sleeping, what did you do that you could call your own will? When you sat
outside my Hidey Hole, was it what you were programmed to do, or what you wanted to do? Did you
have family on the surface? Did they worry about you? How much did you truly care?
Father, what I am, what you were... it destroyed so many lives. I am somewhat glad Rapture will fall
apart soon. I don't want it to hurt anyone else, ever again.
Have you ever wondered about names Father? I was thinking about that today while Dr. Tenenbaum is tracking down relatives for the Little Sisters. I mean, I am Eleanor Lamb. Why did Mother name me that? Eleanor doesn't have a meaning, but Sofia (Mother's name) deals with wisdom. And you, Father, were given the name "Subject Delta" You were the fourth Alpha daddy, but you also changed things. Then again, they couldn't have known that when they named you. But even so... what was your real name? Did you even remember it? You were an Alpha, you were smarter, faster, more powerful, capable of splicing... they cut your type of Big Daddies because you would either become extra violent or cry uncontrollably when we, your Little Sister, died. Only one sister to one daddy. The new Daddies are less individual, but... at least they won't be so far gone if the Sisters disappeared.
Jack's house may not have been the best place. Cindy came out of her programming yesterday and
started to cry. Apparently her full name is Cindy Meltzer and Jack's house is right next to her old one.
We're trying to find her mother now. Her father was a man named Mark Meltzer and he...Father, he
figured out Rapture exists. He was the only person to notice little girls being taken and Cindy was
taken in response. He spent MONTHS tracking her down, only to die in Rapture. I understand, Father,
that you didn't know when you rescued Cindy, but Cindy no longer completely trusts me.
I don't blame her. She knows I have you with me, and she knows that her true Father was her Big
Daddy. To be given a choice like that....either die or turn into something not truly yourself.
Then again, it was still Mark, wasn't it? He became a Big Daddy partly out of love. He went in
Rapture because of Love. He survived because of Love.
Then again, it doesn't really matter. Cindy now knows she is without a father. Dr. Tenenbaum (she's
living with us now in Jack's house. Did I ever tell you that? Oh, well, she doesn't really have a place to
go so she helps out Jack. She's very good, but she still carries a pistol everywhere and spends a lot of
time staring at the stars. Then again, if I had lived most of my life under the sea or in a prison camp,
I would love the stars too. But there's something else with that for her.... I wish I knew) Anyway,
Dr. Tenenbaum said she would try to track down Cindy's mother. If she does have family, I hope she
wants to live with them.
Father, about that list...you didn't save some of the girls. They're still there in Rapture. Dr.
Tenenbaum broke into Mark's house yesterday and found all of his research. Father, Mark Meltzer
didn't just find out Rapture exists, he managed to pull together a partial list of who went to Rapture!
Andrew Ryan, Dr. Tenenbaum, Dr. Suchong (you remember him, right?), Dr. Steinman, Dr. Lanford,
and Mr. Oakes... But it's not just the founders of Rapture, it's the new Little Sisters. Apparently he
was one of the few people (if not the only person) who realized something was kidnapping girls who
lived on the ocean that fit a certain visual profile. Cindy bucked the trend, but she was taken out of a
warning. Father, the list is real, and not all the names on it are in Jack's house. And there's more on
the list then I know were killed by Splicers. Father....some people are suffering through Rapture still,
ones beyond that girl who I can never fully reach. I need to save them. They're all tied to me still, and
I need to show them life beyond what they have now. A life of peace, a life of harmony, a life where
they can HAVE lives. Dr. Tenenbaum is pulling together another expedition. I am going with her; I
need to save the rest of my Sisters.